… to BYTT (Week 1)

10 yoga classes and 2 earthquakes later, I can proudly say I have survived week 1 of Bikram Yoga Teacher Training in Acapulco, Mexico! Whew.

Saturday 9/16/18 – Day 0 (Prep)
I spent most of Saturday running around the city. My suitcases were packed but there were still a few things I had to do. I did my last Bikram class at my home studio in the morning and after class we all celebrated my trip with a small party. Mauri put together some snacks for everyone and it was nice to have everyone’s support and love!

After class, I hurried home to change for a party and to load up the car. I got a little teary-eyed locking my apartment door and walking away. I know 9 weeks is not a long time in the grand scheme of things but leaving my home for that long made me a little emotional and I think that is normal!

My brother dropped me off at my friend Lindsay’s house so I could attend the gender reveal party for her and her husband’s baby! It is a boy! I cannot wait to meet him!

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After the party, we headed over to my dad’s house to celebrate the September birthdays in the family. We ate, drank, and had a great time. I had so many “goodbyes” during the week and it was overwhelming to now say goodbye to my family. I know it is not forever but again, it is hard to leave for 9 weeks!

 

Sunday 9/17/17 – Day 1
I kicked off the trip with a 3am wakeup call to catch my 6am flight. As you can imagine, I barely slept at all that night. Dad and Suzette were kind enough to drive me to the airport and wait with me to check my bags in ($155 in baggage fees… oy) before sending me on my way. Shout out to them for taking care of Elliott while I am away and for always taking me to the airport!

When I arrived in Mexico City, I was pretty emotional (again). Last time I was in Mexico City… well, see my last blog post. Being there and at the airport brought back a lot of memories and I was not ready for that! Luckily, when I got off the plane, there were 4 other Americans so I swallowed my feelings and together the 5 of us figured out how to get through immigration, get our bags, go through security, and find our next flight. The 4 of them were all heading to Cancun so we parted ways and I boarded my flight to Acapulco.

We landed in Acapulco just before noon and there were several Bikram people on the plane. I had been friends with Jana on Instagram for awhile so we recognized each other and stuck together. I did admit that I had already been here once before so I was asked a lot of questions about different things but I was happy to answer them. The bus ride to the hotel was short and checking in was easy. Being back at this hotel was a bit overwhelming (again, see last post) but having people around and being so occupied and focused on my own thing was helpful. I was also really excited to just finally be here and get going! My roommate, Leah, was already here so we got to know each other while I unpacked and got settled.

Orientation was at 3pm. It was a quick welcome and introduction to training. We met the staff (but not Bikram yet… yes, he is a real living person!) and went over basic rules and schedules. Everyone got to know each other a little bit and we became fast friends. Some people were still arriving later that night so not everyone was there yet.

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After orientation, they took us to Walmart. My new friend, Andrew, and I partnered up and went around the store getting water, snacks, etc. I brought snacks so I really did not need much.

Everyone had dinner after Walmart and then a few of us walked around the property, checked out the studio, and watched the sunset on the beach. We even got to see a hotel staff member carry out a bucket of baby turtles to the sea! It had been a long day so I went to sleep pretty early, anxious and ready the next day!

 

Monday 9/18/17 – Day 2
Somehow I managed to sleep 10+ hours! I felt like I new person waking up. There was no morning yoga class today so we had a late breakfast and I studied some dialogue by the pool before our noon orientation with Bikram. Orientation was an experience! Bikram welcomed us and got us pumped for our first class later that night.

After orientation, Andrew and I studied dialogue for a couple of hours and grabbed a late lunch in the cafe so we would not starve in class. Waiting for our first class with Bikram was torture! I was so anxious and because people had already started to friend each other on social media, I was seeing how AMAZING people were and I was worried I would be horrible compared to them!

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Class was at 5pm and I have never, ever, in my life been in a room that hot and humid! It was ridiculously hot. It was so hot it was unsafe, in my opinion. When Bikram walked in, even he said it was too hot. (After class, teachers and other staff even said it was too hot. It was rumored to be over 100% humidity and around 140 degrees but I do not know where people got those numbers. They did say it was the hottest on record, though.) 2 people were taken out by staff before class even started because they were starting to pass out. Nobody wanted to be the first person to sit in the first class, especially when Bikram was teaching, but at any given point, at least half of the class was sitting, myself included. I was so dizzy. The room did not start to cool off to normal temperatures until about Triangle pose and felt mostly normal again/in my zone by the floor series. It was an over 2 hour class and we all survived, somehow. The bright side is that none of us will ever experience a room that hot again… so it should be all downhill from there! A few of us jumped in the ocean after class and watched the most beautiful sunset. We had dinner and no evening lecture class so it was another early night.

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Tuesday 9/19/17 – Day 3
Tuesday was our first day of double yoga classes. We kicked off with an 8:30am Bikram class (at the correct temperature!) taught by Laju, Bikram’s daughter. This was a MUCH better class for me and for everyone else it seemed. I did not need to sit once, a big improvement compared to the day before. I had a quick breakfast after class and then tried to study a bit more with Leah and Leslie. We were supposed to start doing our dialogue for Half Moon in front of Bikram during the afternoon lecture and I wanted to do mine to get it over with!

Afternoon lecture started at 1pm. Bikram talked for a little bit and just as I was starting to get antsy in those uncomfortable lecture chairs… EARTHQUAKE. The room started trembling and we all looked at each other, not realizing it was an earthquake at first. Manali (head BYTT staff member) came running back in and told us it was earthquake and we needed to leave the building. We ushered ourselves outside and waited about half an hour and practiced some splits with Johana and Jana before heading back in to finish lecture. Unfortunately, we did not have time to start our Half Moon dialogue!

Our second yoga class started at 5pm (similar schedule every day), again with Bikram. He teaches all of the evening classes and a staff member or visiting teacher teaches the morning ones. It was a great class! We all looked so pathetic on Monday because of the heat so this was his first time really seeing us and what we are capable of. He did start picking on people a little bit but admittedly said he was being easy on us this week and was going to be nice. I did well (did not sit down)! I put my mat in the front row because I figured he could see us anywhere in the room and would call us out regardless, so I might as well be as close to the mirror as I can so that I can at least see myself (it helps with the balance). Luckily, I did not get called out.

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I chatted with my mom for a bit after dinner and then with my dad and Suzette. Everyone wanted to know about the earthquake and how things were going. Our evening lecture at 10pm. Yes, that is a late start! 2 classes and 2 lectures a day… oy! I was able to do my dialogue in front of Bikram. I was 5th to go and pretty nervous. He stopped me halfway and told me that I knew the dialogue too well and that I needed to add personality and not sound like a tape. This was the same feedback every teacher who had heard me do it in the past said so I was not surprised. My instructor friend, Katy, had told me that personality comes over time so I mainly focused on getting the words out and staying calm. I think it went well overall! After lecture I found out that Laju had live streamed my dialogue delivery on Facebook and one of my instructors back home, Jerome, had watched it! That was pretty cool. I was so excited to be finished with it and my adrenaline was pumping! I saw Katy was on Facebook chat so I called her and got to tell her about it and that was fun. I definitely did not fall asleep easily that night!

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On stage doing my Half Moon. My hand was shaking holding the microphone!

 

Wednesday 9/20/19 – Day 4
We had our morning class with Anurag, Bikram’s son. He was pretty easy on us and did not offer corrections but was very, very encouraging. He had good energy and I had a great class again. The morning classes are tough because my body is still so tight but I still have managed to do pretty well. I am no super-star yogi in that room but I am doing my best!

After breakfast I tried to study but ended up napping on a couch in the Mezzanine area instead. It is an open air, secluded space in our building so it was pretty quiet and comfortable. Oops! By the way, all of the food has been great. We have had a really good variety every day.

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Afternoon lecture consisted of listening to people deliver their Half Moon in front of Bikram. It was definitely a long process but everyone is so encouraging to each person that went up there. We always clapped and cheered for everyone and helped them if they were struggling. We all are in the same boat and we all know what it is like to be up on that stage so we might as well work together! Bikram let us out early and I helped a few others study their dialogue and snacked on one too many vegetable chips before heading to our 5th class at 5pm.

I was really dreading going. I was started to feel sore and sick (see the ‘too many chips’ comment above) but as soon as class got started, I was in the zone and it was definitely my best class so far! I stayed in the front row but Bikram noticed that just about everyone was sitting in the same spot as Monday and Tuesday and he told we needed to start rotating around the room. Argh! Y’all know how I like my comfort zone! After every class, the instructor plays a song during final savasana. When Bikram teaches, it is usually one of his songs OR he sings a song to us. It is oddly relaxing and dare I say, slightly moving? I cannot explain it!

I relaxed on the patio for a bit after class and just watched the rain. It had rained all day but thankfully we had no aftershocks from the previous day’s earthquake. I went down for dinner (it is funny, it is always the same people who are down there first) and afterward caught up on my EveryDollar budget and work emails. I made it all of 3 days before checking work email… shocking. I tried to watch the AGT Finale but the WiFi was not strong enough to stream video. I can have a video chat but not watch TV. What is up with that?!

During our evening lecture, we learned about the history of yoga. I have a feeling we will be learning more and more about that as the weeks go on! It was definitely interesting. We do not need to take notes during class or anything but Bikram drops little gems of wisdom every now and them so I would write them down. Plus, doodling or writing helped me stay awake. He let us out “early” again and I was in bed and sound asleep by 12:45am.

 

Thursday 9/21/17 – Day 5
Against my will, I sat in a new spot in the morning class. Manali taught it and everyone was excited to finally take her class. She is our main point of contact for everything so we see and talk to her a lot. You can think of her like our group Mom, essentially. She was firm with us but it was a great class. My mind was totally not in the room but I did well anyway!

After breakfast (which is really more like brunch/lunch if you have not noticed), I helped some friends study their Half Moon dialogue. The afternoon lecture consisted of more people doing their dialogue in front of Bikram. None of us will have an excuse to not know Half Moon after how many times we had to hear it! I would say it is exhausting to sit there and listen to it over and over again (which it is, to some degree) but because each person is different and we are all still getting to know each other, it really was not that bad. I did try to capitalize on some time though and start reviewing the dialogue for another posture but it was difficult to stay focused when I wanted to still hear everyone go.

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Bikram let us out early again and the sun was finally back out so Lidia, Maryla, and I went to the salt water pool to relax. We swam, took yoga pictures, and soaked up the sun before our evening class. They say salt water baths are supposed to help you with muscle aches so we decided swimming in the salt water pool was a good equivalent!

Our evening class with Bikram was another good one for me. I moved my mat again (sigh), this time close to the podium, and ended up getting my first correction from him. He spent a lot of time picking on the girls to either side of me so I knew it was only a matter of time until he got to me! He used my actual name (our names are in large print on our mats so teachers can see them from the podium) instead of a nickname and very quickly told me to take a bigger step during Standing Separate Leg Head to Knee. I fixed my posture and we moved on. Whew. After class, he sang to us in the middle of the room. It was kind of a cool moment. As much as I want to resist fan-girling over him, I will admit it is pretty neat to be able to take classes and learn directly from the guy who created something I am so passionate about!

I spent time checking work emails after dinner and commenting on support tickets (sorry, guys). I truly cannot help myself! I am sure I will have less and less time for those kinds of tasks as the weeks go on but for now, let it happen.

We watched a documentary during our evening lecture. It was more interesting than I thought it would be and I kind of liked it. I do not really know what to take away from it but I did not hate it. The movie mentioned a book that the main subject wrote and I actually jotted down the title so I could go read it one day after this. Yogi status = 100%. I was in bed by midnight!

 

Friday 9/22/17 – Day 6
We had a guest teacher, Ana, teach the morning class (I feel horrible but I forgot her name already). She taught mostly in Spanish which was REALLY cool. It was my first time having a class not in English and I really enjoyed it. If you are familiar with the practice, you really only need to know words like: right/left, inhale/exhale, up/down, push/pull, stretch, relax, change, and savasana! 🙂 I had a great class again, too, but man, Rabbit pose is SO difficult in the morning for me. Luckily, it helps warm me up for the afternoon class.

I was not as hungry as I had been so I had a light breakfast and then Lidia and I went to the pool and took some more fun pictures. People were watching us from the restaurant but we did not care; might as well enjoy it and take as many pictures as we can while we are here!

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We finished everyone’s Half Moon during the afternoon lecture – whoop! We have a few non-English speakers here and I really felt for them as they powered through it. They definitely had the most to overcome to do it so everyone cheered quite a bit! We ended lecture a little early again and because Andrew had been sick the past few days and no one had seen him, I went to check on him. He gave me the run down of what was going on and basically, he had been really sick. He had gone to the doctor several times, had IVs, was on all sorts of medication, was not eating, was not sleeping, etc. It was the perfect storm of all things horrible for him. Everyone had been asking me where he was and what was going on since we had not seen him (and apparently I was his official spokesperson which was fine with me) so I just felt like I had to check. We had exchanged numbers earlier in the week but my phone would not receive his texts so it was a pointless effort. He did not have a roommate either so we were all really worried about him! After checking on him, I went back to the pool. There really is not much else to do here during our free time besides be at the pool!

The evening class was another good one. I got called out again, this time during Wind Removing pose, for not having my arms low low enough on my legs. I know I do not go low enough so it was only a matter of time. However, when Bikram says do something… you do it. So, I forced myself to move my arms lower and we moved on. Again, could have been worse! I have already noticed improvements in several of my postures which is kind of insane after having been practicing for as many classes in a row as I have. I think part of that is from Bikram correcting other people and me just trying to listen/soak up that feedback before he says the same thing to me, but also part of it comes from me just wanting to do well and pushing myself more than I have before. I do not feel like I need to show off in front of Bikram but I definitely do not want to stand out for the WRONG reasons, if that makes sense.

We were fortunate enough to have no evening lecture for having the “best 1st week of training ever” (which I am sure he says every time) so after dinner I talked with dad and Suzette so they could catch me up on Elliott’s teeth cleaning ordeal. Shout out again to them for watching him and taking such good care of him! I miss my little nugget!

Because we had no lecture and there is not much to do here, Tom, Mandi, Kiley, and I hung out in the Mezzanine area and talked for a couple of hours while listening to the thunderstorm. The mosquitoes out here are top notch biters!

Leah and I visited Andrew again just before bed to get an update. I will not get into it here but basically, he told us he was going to have to go home. He was very sick all week with no improvement and the next step was going to a hospital which he did not want to do in Mexico, especially alone. I was very disappointed to hear how he was treated during this and how alone he was through it all. I cannot imagine what he was going through with his physical pains but also his emotional ones of having to make a tough decision to potentially go home. It takes so much effort to pause your life for 9 weeks and to have to go back after just a week is hugely disappointing and I am sure it caused him a lot of stress. They say over and over again to trust the process here but when something like this happens and it is handled the way it was, it makes me not only not trust them, but not feel safe. If something were to happen to me, would I be taken care of? It does not sit well with me.

 

Saturday 9/23/17 – Day 7
We are supposed to have a single morning class on Saturdays but we woke up to the news that the hot room had flooded overnight. The carpet in one corner of the room was wet in the evening class the night before but somehow something went wrong and the whole room was soaked. Obviously, class had to be cancelled. I was actually looking forward to class so it was kind of a bummer. We went down anyway to see the damage and make sure class was actually cancelled and a lot of people looked disappointed. We do not know what caused it (the storm the night before, the earthquake earlier in the week, something else?). I am sure the staff knows but they do not tell us a lot. We usually find out what is going on right before it happens. I count my classes as part of my 365 Day Yoga Challenge and it had worked out that my final class at training would be class #400. That number was assuming we did 11 a week as planned. Now, because there was no morning class on Monday and no morning class this day, it will not land on such a nice number! If more classes are not cancelled, I might try doing the makeup classes on Saturday (if you miss a class or a lecture or even forget to sign in on time for them, you have to do a double on Saturday mornings) to catch up. We will see how it goes.

There was also another little earthquake in the morning. I was laying in bed at 8am waiting to walk down to class and I definitely felt a little rumble. It felt and sounded like there was an elephant walking around upstairs and lasted for at least a minute or two. I looked it up and sure enough, a 6.1 magnitude earthquake hit Oaxaco.

With no class, I tried to go back to sleep after doing some laundry but had no luck. Andrew did make the decision to leave so we said goodbye to him and he was nice enough to give us all of his water, drinks, and snacks. It was a sad moment! I still cannot believe how everything played out but the show must go on…

After breakfast we were able to make another Walmart trip. I was not planning on going since I still had plenty of water and snacks of my own and now also had Andrew’s but there was not much else to do so I went anyway. I figured while I was there I might as well get even more water and snacks but somehow I also ended up with a swimsuit cover-up and matching “Power” shirts with Lidia and Maryla. *facepalm* Luckily, since they feed us over the weekends (which they did not do last training), I had room in my budget. It helps that everything at Walmart is cheap, too. Walmart is attached to a mall so Lidia and I walked around the mall to see what else there was to offer – answer: not much, stick to Walmart.

When we got back, it seemed like everyone had the same idea: sit by one of the many pools and study. You can only study for so long in one sitting so of course yoga shenanigans occurred and we took yoga pictures. Alicia and I went down the water slide and explored a small cave in the salt water pool. The lifeguard was super awkward and followed us there but it was funny. For all we know, he was telling us to leave the cave but we were just smiling at him and swimming around. I was out there for a few hours and it was really relaxing and just a good time hanging out with people, studying together, correcting postures together, etc. Will every weekend be like this?!

I took a break from the sun in the afternoon before dinner to check email, organize my pictures from the week, and get a jump start on writing this post. It was pizza night for dinner!

Maryla, Leah, and I went on a walk after dinner. We walked down the beach and around the hotel a few times before calling it a night!

 

Sunday 9/24/17 – Day 8
Sundays are always a 100% free day for us. No class, no lecture, no anything. I decided to capitalize on this and stay in bed until breakfast at 10:30am. I had woken up a lot during the night and tossed and turned so I stayed in bed to get as much rest as possible. After breakfast, I got to video chat with Kelsey for a little bit and catch up!

I am heading down to the pool now to study and perfect my tan! We all need to get as much rest and relaxation in as we can before kicking off week 2 – our first full week (assuming the hot room is dried out in time for tomorrow morning’s class!).

Until next week,

Jillian

…. to Bikram Yoga Teacher Training!

Surprise! I am heading to Acapulco, Mexico for 9 weeks from September 17 to November 19 to attend Teacher Training and officially get certified to teach Bikram yoga!

As many of you know, Bikram yoga has become quite a passion of mine, more than I could ever explain in a single blog post. I have not blogged about it recently but I am just a few days away from my 270th yoga class (in 270 days)! You can read about my journey in my previous posts:

A lot has happened since my 100 Days! There have been good days/weeks and bad days/weeks for a number of reasons, mostly personal and none worth re-living. The yoga studio was my happy place for a long time but there was a period of time where it was my least favorite place and it was really difficult to maintain a good practice and be there. I continued to push through with my challenge though and over time, things returned to normal and now here I am… finishing 9 consecutive months and going to get certified to teach! What a crazy ride.

In 9 months, I have completed:

  • 189 90-min Bikram classes
  • 41 60-min Bikram classes
  • 22 Inferno Hot Pilates classes
  • 20 Yin classes
  • 4 Misc classes (hatha flow, pilates, etc.)

Note: Somewhere along the way I decided to change my challenge from “365 yoga classes in 365 days” to “365 90-minute BIKRAM classes in 365 days.” This means that instead of finishing my challenge in November, I will be finishing it sometime in December! I have a lot to make up! 

Anyway, I had been considering going to Teacher Training (TT) for several months but always talked myself out of it. There were too many unknowns and too many logistics to sort out. How would this impact my job? How could I leave Elliott for 9 weeks? How do I pay for it? The list goes on. Everyone just kept telling me “you will know when it is time.” In typical Rahn fashion, my logistical/conservative/traditional side was holding me back. When I visited Laos last June for his TT graduation, the wheels started turning faster than ever. A lot of the unknowns became known and a few weeks after I got home, I knew it was my time. Everything holding me back was no longer a factor. For anyone who knows me beyond just a Facebook friend, you know that when I put my mind to something, I make it happen. I am also a big believer in the concept that if something (or someone) is important enough to you, all excuses disappear and you will do whatever it takes to make it happen/work. So, I set out to do it.

The first and most important step I had to take was to talk to my bosses. I love my job and do not currently desire to be a full-time yoga teacher; meaning when I get back from TT, I would like to return to the company and only teach yoga on the side. I needed to sort out if a leave of absence was not only possible but sort out what kind of implications may exist. Gary and I went to lunch on a Friday and talked through every aspect of it. The following Monday, I met with Eric. Several meetings and conversations took place over the next 2 weeks between the 3 of us and everything was approved/signed off on/sorted out. Just today, we announced it to the rest of the company (tough secret to keep for so long!).

After working out the job portion, I started focusing on everything else it would take to be able to go… which was a lot. I had many conversations with my family and friends to not only explain my decision to go – because it is so ‘unexpected’ from me and because people who do not do yoga just do not understand it, which I recognize – but to get their advice and help on handling the rest of my to-do list: my brother to get my mail, my dad and stepmom to watch Elliott, etc.. I made so. many. spreadsheets. Everything just came together so smoothly which really helped me feel even more at peace with going.

Now that is official, I have about a month and a half to prepare! At work, I have to help the team get prepared for my leave of absence. We have a lot to do so that everything runs as normal as possible for 9 weeks! Outside of work, I have already started memorizing the dialogue and putting together a shopping/packing list. I thought packing for Europe for 1 month would be impossible but packing for 2 months… overwhelming. The good news is that I have been to Acapulco and to the hotel (and was dating someone who was at the most recent TT) so I have a better/insider insight of what to need, bring, and expect.

The TT scheduled is intense:

  • Monday-Friday: two 90-min+ yoga classes and two 3+ hour lecture classes (general lecture, anatomy class, and/or posture clinic); the days go from around 8am to midnight or later
  • Saturday: one yoga class in the morning
  • Sunday: off

x 9 weeks. If I have any energy left by each Sunday, I will try to blog about the week’s experience so y’all can follow along!

I am so excited, nervous, scared, sad, anxious… everything! I am nervous that I will not do well while I am there. I am scared to miss so much at work. I am sad to be away from my family, friends, and ELLIOTT for so long. I am also sad to be missing what would’ve been the 5th annual pumpkin carving party with Kelsey and John… and to be missing most of football season! I am anxious about going out of my comfort zone. I am mostly excited though and am really looking forward to this experience and being able to teach!

I will keep everyone updated on any “going away” shenanigans that might occur! Stay tuned.

Here goes nothing!

Jillian

… to Acapulco, Mexico

At the end of June (June 23-28), I went to Acapulco, Mexico for a few days to celebrate Laos’ graduation from Bikram Yoga Teacher Training. It has taken me awhile to write this because I was not sure what exactly to write… but here we are.

Laos was gone for 9 weeks and the last few were very difficult on our relationship but I was excited (and nervous) to see him again and celebrate his accomplishments. I made it to Acapulco and to the beautiful resort around 3pm Friday, after missing a connecting flight in Mexico City, and we were happily reunited around 4pm after he got out of a lecture class. Afterward, I joined him and his fellow trainees for their last Bikram class (taught by Bikram)! It was so awesome to be in the room with everyone and I was happy to be doing yoga with my yoga buddy again. Class with Bikram was quite a treat and that is about all I can say there! I had a great class but it was so much more exciting to see everyone’s relief and joy in finishing their last class. Everyone was hugging and celebrating and I consider myself lucky to have been able to be a part of that! I was also excited to finally meet all of his new friends he had spent weeks telling me about.

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Arriving in Acapulco
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Princess Mundo Imperial Resort
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Toasting the last class with a Coke (I didn’t drink it!). Can you spot us?
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We took a dip in the ocean after class with Laos’ friend and her boyfriend! I’ve never experienced waves like that before.

On Saturday, Laos and everyone graduated. I was so proud of him! I am sure they were all happy to be finished.

We took a long walk on the beach Sunday afternoon and decided to break up. There is a lot to share there but nothing worth re-living. We are both different people in 100 ways; something we already knew but something that was highlighted over and over again during the 9 weeks and especially during the few days I was there. We say the reason is because he wants to travel indefinitely and I do not want to do long-term long distance… but I think deep down we both know that was not the only reason, or even the main reason. No matter the reasons though, it was for the best. We shared a nice moment and I hope one day we can have the friendship we once had before, again. He is a great guy and I wish him the best.

We tried to make the best of the situation and enjoy the rest of the trip hanging out at the pool and beach Sunday and doing the XTASEA zip line on Monday. We drove to Mexico City Tuesday (driving across Mexico was an insane experience) and after realizing it just was not possible to ‘make the best of it’ at that time (too awkward), I flew home 2 days early on Wednesday.

After everything, it was tough saying goodbye to him because no matter what, it is difficult to say goodbye to someone you care about when you don’t know when (or if) you will see them again. We shared another special moment saying goodbye, one that I will always cherish. It was an emotional trip in so many ways but I am glad that I went. It was nice to celebrate his accomplishment with him and to give us an opportunity to see each other again, even if it did not go the way we planned. No regrets.

I would also like to thank my dad and Suzette for watching Elliott while I was away. A big thanks goes to my family and friends for being supportive and there for me while I was struggling during my time in Mexico and even more so when I returned home!

Until next time,

Jillian

… to yoga for 100 days!

“The only thing standing between you and your goal is the bullshit story you keep telling yourself as to why you can’t achieve it.”
― Jordan Belfort

Today was my 100th day of yoga in 100 days! The last 40 days (since the completion of my 60-Day Challenge) were not easy for a number of reasons but I persevered and hit this amazing milestone. My schedule was busier than ever with all of my other commitments – I quite possibly have over extended myself – but I was determined to keep going and make it work and I did!

Let’s take a look at the stats of the last 40 days:

  • 10 missed days – because I was either sick, busy, or lazy (usually just busy)
  • 8 doubles – typically a 90 minute Bikram class and a 60 minute class of another type such as Pilates or Yin… but I did also do a REAL double of two 90 minute Bikram classes back to back
  • 7 Express classes – 60 minutes of Bikram
  • 4 Inferno Hot Pilates classes – a fun and upbeat cardio workout with music
  • 3 Yin Yoga classes – quite possibly the greatest yoga of all time and a new favorite of mine; it is so relaxing/calming and you feel so stretched out afterward
  • 1 Classical Pilates class – a class I am not good at
  • 1 triple – Inferno Hot Pilates in the morning, Bikram and Yin in the evening… and a sand volleyball game that night!

Just as before, there were good days and bad days BUT I have noticed that I tend to have more good days as I continue the challenge. It is exciting to see myself continue to progress so much. I still cannot believe I did a triple one day! Looking back, I still do not know how I managed to do this with the insane schedule I had and all the things I had going on but that makes me all the more proud of myself.

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Our triple day!
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Laos, me, Paul, and Katy attempting to spell out “Yin” – we did our best! Katy is the Yin instructor (in addition to Bikram) and not only is she fabulous, but her class is as well!

The studio has really become a second home and the other students and instructors have become family. An amazing bond forms when you find people who enjoy something just as much as you do (I am lucky to have that with my sand volleyball family too). Each teacher brings something different to the table and impacts me differently and I love them all the same for it. They have been such a big part of this yoga journey and I have loved getting to try their other classes (Classical Pilates, Inferno Hot Pilates, and Yin) and support them like they have done for me. They’ve made me laugh, cry, and push myself more than ever. I am also very lucky to have such a good yoga partner in my friend Laos. He is on day 160 and I really do not think I could have made it this far without him. He keeps me motivated with our friendly competition and is incredibly supportive. He has even reworked his own schedule on more than one occasion so we could go to class together because class is always more fun with a friend… even the 5:30am class (just kidding, I will never go to that one again!).

Physically, I continue to feel stronger and more flexible than ever before. My body has continued to change and in the right light, you can see my baby abs! My stomach has a nice layer of flab still (not mad about it) but if you touch it, there are definitely abs forming. I have never had abs in my entire life! My diet is not perfect but I am pretty sure if I could get that under control, those abs would start making their way out more. I just love sweets too much (eating Girl Scout cookies as I write this). My biceps look insane and my triceps are starting to tighten up which I thought would never happen. My legs are rock solid which is appropriate since we are constantly told in class to make our legs “concrete, lamp post.” Mission accomplished. I also think I’ve improved a lot in volleyball (mostly with stamina – I can play 2 on 2!) so the benefits carry over.

Other noteworthy accomplishments include finally finding a way to fasten my hair so that it does not come loose, fall, or annoy me during class and finding a laundry detergent that actually makes my gross yoga clothes smell decent. Little wins can be just as satisfying as the big ones!

Unfortunately, I started to have some knee pain (mostly in my left knee) but it was intermittent. It’s the 3rd part of “awkward pose” that hurts it the most but every now and then it extends to other poses. I try to take it easy when it is really bothersome but I also push myself more than I should so… it may never heal. I also hurt my neck playing volleyball (day 99) so it made today a little more difficult. I am hopeful that will work itself out too.

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The class celebrating Laos’ 150-Day Challenge and my 90-Day Challenge. I brought vegan cupcakes for everyone afterward (thank you, Lauren) and they were delicious!

On completion of my 90-Day Challenge, I asked Laos to take photos of some of my poses so I could have some proof that I was capable of doing these things when I am old and gray! I did not do all of the poses but looking back, I wish I had. I will need to take another round at the 120 day mark so I can compare progress.

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Half Moon Pose – I can totally go further horizontal… argh!
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Backward bend – This was a big accomplishment for me! No fear!
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Awkward Post – Part 1
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Awkward Pose -Part 2
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Awkward Pose – Part 3
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Eagle – I still struggle with getting my arms low enough and aligned but it’s getting better
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Standing Head to Knee – Sorry Tanja, I forgot to turn my ankle and get my toes facing my forehead!
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Standing Bow – Getting better!
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Balancing Stick
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Triangle – Getting better!
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Standing Separate Head to Knee – I can do this side all the way but I still struggle with the other side. Progress, though.
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Toe Stand – Check out those biceps!
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Full Locust
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Floor Bow
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Fixed Firm – My absolute favorite.
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Half Tortoise
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Camel

 

In celebration of my 100 days, Laos got me a personalized embroidered yoga towel, in my favorite color, to commemorate the day. He had me convinced he was getting a bouncy castle for the parking lot so I was happy to NOT have received that and instead get this very sweet gift! Thank you, Laos.

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Have I humble bragged enough in this post? Possibly. But I think I have earned the right to do so!

I have come this far so I am obviously going to continue to the 120-Day Challenge. I will keep going as long as I can… I cannot imagine my days and weeks without yoga now. I hope to have some of you join me for a few classes!

Until next time,

Jillian

… to yoga for 60 days!

I completed the 60-Day Challenge!

I have to admit, I was not confident that I would be able to finish the Challenge because of the holidays and the crazy schedules they create but I somehow managed to make it work! You can read about the first 30 days of the challenge, here. In the next 30 days of the challenge I had to do FOUR double days (2 classes in one day) and one too many Express classes (60 minutes instead of 90 minutes) to make it work but I did it… I completed 60 classes in 60 days!

My poses continued to improve and my body continued getting stronger.  Just as before, there were good days and bad days. My back felt better this round but still hurt occasionally  which made me so grateful for my awesome massage therapist! Even on the bad days, I found that it was never difficult to get myself to the studio which was a nice change. During the first challenge, I had to practically drag myself there kicking and screaming but this time, I willingly went each day, even in the cold/rainy weather. Going to class definitely became a part of my routine and I think I finally got used to the insane amount of laundry. Everyone just wears clothes straight from the dryer, right?

Tanja, one of the instructors, took some pictures of us on NYE (day 56). My triangle pose and rabbit were garbage that day but my floor bow was pretty good.

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My sub-par triangle pose. I needed to get my hips down more! I’ll spare you the up-close, individual one she got of me here.
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Rabbit pose. Note the huge gap between my forehead and knees (the gap should not be there) – my body did not want to fold up that day.
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Floor bow!

Rujin, the studio owner, also asked me to write a little blurb for the studio newsletter about my challenge experience. That should be coming soon!

We took a normal group photo to celebrate my 60 Days on Ruijin’s phone but the camera was not great. The only clear one we got was on my phone and of course had to be the silly/awkward one at the top of this post (Katy, me, Paul, Laos – Katy and Paul are instructors). Does anyone look normal when 2 people pick them up like that?! Note to self: take the next picture BEFORE class!

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Laos also celebrated his 100 days (and is almost at the 120 day mark now!) during my challenge, which makes me feel inadequate but he had a nearly 60 day head start on me so I really should not compare myself. I brought him the ‘100’ balloons to celebrate! Who knows, maybe I will be able to complete 100 days too!

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As you might have guessed by now… I am going to attempt the 90-Day Challenge! I really do not like admitting that I want to do it because I am afraid of failure but maybe by admitting it, I will hold myself accountable to complete it. January will be a busy month – I have started volunteering for the Ronald McDonald House inside Texas Children’s Hospital, one of my volleyball leagues starts, and I committed to going to an event at church every Sunday evening – but no excuses, right? Wish me luck!

Until next time,

Jillian

… to yoga for 30 days!

 

Q: Wait, you do yoga?
A: Apparently! I went to a class once in high school but did not actually start doing yoga until a neighbor (who is no longer my neighbor) invited me to go with him last year. I went to my first class on December 22, 2015 and fell in love with it. It is also worth mentioning that I was not entirely terrible at it! Because it was my first time at the studio, they offered me a deal and gave me a discounted price for 2 weeks of unlimited classes. I went several more times during the 2 weeks and continued on for many months after that. I took a break when I got back from my Europe trip but was missing it quite a bit (and needed a break from the gym) so I picked it up again in early November.

Q: What kind of yoga?
A: Bikram Hot Yoga. It is a 90 minute class consisting of 2 sets of 26 postures and 2 breathing exercises performed in a heated room of 105 degrees with 40% humidity. You sweat, a lot.

The instructor has to follow a ‘script’ so the class is essentially the same every time. Each instructor is a little different though in that some just rush through it, others are chatty and try to be funny, and others really try to get you to push yourself both mentally and physically.

Q: So you went for 30 days… what is the big deal?
A: I went for 30 days IN A ROW as part of the “30-Day Challenge” which is where you complete 30 classes in 30 days. I would call that a big deal!

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My 30-day chart. It was exciting to put my final sticker on! If you notice, my stickers are in a nice color pattern. #OCD 

Q: Why did you do the challenge?
A: I did not start going to yoga again with the intent to do the challenge but after I realized I had gone 4 days in a row, I thought to myself, “what’s another 26 days?” Plus, there was a guy in the class (Laos) who was almost finished with his 60-Day Challenge and currently going for his 90-Day Challenge, a lady (Claudia) who did a 30-Day a few months ago, and that lady’s daughter (Rebecca) who had recently finished her own 30-Day. The four of us were there every day at the same time and seeing them work toward it and do so well inspired me to try it.

Q: Why did you stop going to yoga and why did you start again?
A: I stopped because I left the country for a month and when I came back, I just did not have the time. I was “training” for my first half-marathon and I really just wanted to focus on that. Plus, yoga is expensive and because of the trip and other things, the yoga budget got cut. I started again because after the half-marathon, I was not working out much. My IT band in my right leg was really tight and I had been going to physical therapy, doing home exercises, playing volleyball, and occasionally going to the gym but I was not running or really exerting myself.

On top of that, I get really bad anxiety over silly things and I just was not in a great place mentally. Yoga is the only time my brain is able to slow down and tune everything out for 90 minutes and I needed that. I still do, honestly. I would not describe this particular style of yoga as calming/relaxing or consider it meditation yoga but instead, I would say it is a cardio yoga (your heart rate gets up there!). However, it is sort of spiritual in a way. If you get the right instructor, you can really have an experience during class. There were times I actually cried in the room, if that says anything.

Q: Was it difficult going every day?
A: YES. There were days I did NOT want to be there, but I went anyway. There were days that made going really difficult on my schedule, but I went anyway. There were days I was sick, but I went anyway. There were days I was sore and my body hurt, but I went anyway. The challenge is 30 classes in 30 days so I will be honest and say I did miss 2 days (because I legitimately could not make it work in my schedule)… but that only means that there were 2 days I had to attend 2 classes (one in the morning, one in the evening) to make up for it. Those double days were not my favorite.

As with anything, I had good days and bad days though: there were days my body just was not flexible and was not having it (ugh, day 15!!) and there were days where I did so well you might as well have called me the yoga master (shout out to day 16 and day 24!). I did something to my back on day 13 and it bothered me on and off for the rest of the challenge. Some days it did not bother me at all and other days it hurt so badly I did not want to even move. I did get a massage twice and that seemed to help for a bit but I probably should go to the doctor soon.

Also, going in the morning was always very difficult and not necessarily because there was lack of energy but mostly because your body is very tight when you wake up so it made doing the postures more difficult (in my opinion).

Q: Did your yoga postures improve?
A: YES! Whoever first used the phrase “practice makes perfect” really knew what they were talking about because my postures improved so much. During my first class last year, I could barely balance on some of the balancing postures or stretch completely in others and now I can do the advanced versions of almost every posture. With that said, I am not actually perfect so there is always room for improvement

Q: Do you have a favorite posture? A least favorite? 
A: I have been doing well at the “Standing Head to Knee” pose lately so I am enjoying that but I think my favorite is the “Fixed Firm Pose” (pictured). It is not one of the complex ones but I like the way it stretches my legs, stomach, chest, and spine. It feels good!

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My least favorite is “Locust Pose.” The first part of this is doing one leg at a time and that part is not terrible but when you have to do both legs, I hate it. I think part of my hatred is that I am just not very good at it. I can do it, it is just really difficult to hold it the entire time comfortably.

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Q: What was your most favorite thing about doing this? Least favorite? 
A: The most favorite was seeing and learning about what my body is capable of. I would have never thought I could do some of the things I am doing now and it is really exciting to develop like that. It is nice to have a little pride and sense of accomplishment, too.

The least favorite thing was laundry – so. much. laundry. Everyone sweats like crazy in there so after every class I would immediately strip and throw everything (including my yoga towel) into the laundry and then take a shower. I did a load of laundry, typically, once a day as you can imagine you would not want stinky, sweaty clothes sitting in a washing machine for too long. Gross.

Q: That is a lot of yoga. Did you lose any weight?
A: Everyone’s weight fluctuates within a range and yes, my range is about 2-3 pounds lower now which was surprising given that I am basically at a standard weight. More importantly, I can SEE a difference in my body. My curves changed a little, my legs look stronger, I have some resemblance of core muscles, and I might possibly have an actual butt. Regardless of the number though, I like that I can SEE changes.

Other benefit: my skin has been pretty clear!

Q: Do you win something for completing the challenge? 
A: I received 20% off of my next month’s package!

Laos gave me a card and a gift card to celebrate! 

Q: What is next? 
A: No surprise – I am attempting the 60-Day Challenge! I figured now is as good a time as any because I can capitalize on my momentum already. If I stop now and then decide to do the 60-Day Challenge in the future then I have to repeat the 30-Day one which does not seem very efficient. With the Christmas season approaching, it will be more difficult but I am going to try and see what happens. If I am able to do it, maybe I will go for the 90-Day Challenge!

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Q: Dang, now I want to try Bikram! Can I come with you?
A: Always! I have brought several people to try it (shout out to the 5 brave people who came with me last Spring) and all have had different reactions to it. It is always fun to try something new so if you are ever interested, I would love to have you come to class! Send me a message and I will give you all of the information you need.

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Back row: Craig (Laos’ friend who recently started yoga), Laos, Kathleen, and Jim
Front row: Cindy (one of my favorite instructors), and me! 

Lastly, there was a new inspirational quote on the board each day. My favorite one was:

Feel what you feel.
Experience what you experience.
New breath, new moment, new opportunity.

Until next time,

Jillian